Summer 2011 has arrived. :)

Oh good grief. I didnt think Freshman year would pass as fast as it did, but I am forever glad. I'm going to miss a few things about the year..having a class with at least two friends in it, the seniors and having Travel WV with Emi. Its kinda hard for me to believe that next year the kids I've known since elementary school will be graduating..
It's crazy.
That and how much I've changed since last summer. Last year I was so ANGRY at SKD and the whole Wal*Mart thing, now I'm over it. Maybe because I've met other people and realized how much more awesome some people are over her? I was reading through my old posts and was shocked over how much in love I thought I was. Crushing, maybe. But not love.
I never thought I'd see the day.
I went to good ol' Rome Township yesterday, and I saw SKD. I knew I probably would see her, but I honestly wanted to see if I had any feelings left for her. I don't think I do. When she said "Hi" to me, my heart didn't flutter, and I wasn't excited/happy at all. No, I was thinking of my ex girlfriend the entire time.
Maybe I'm in a sorta better place.
In one year my ex will be in college. I wont have to see her anymore, and I have a feeling that I'll feel the same about her then as I feel about SKD now. So I'm not worried about it, I'm just gonna trust myself and try not to force myself to do anything like I used to.
Maybe I am growing up.
Hmm...I can drive now. Thats another change. I passed my written test on the first try. I decided for sure that journalism is what I want to do with my life. I got on the newspaper staff. I'm going to a Journalism camp next week. I'm pretty happy about it. It's at Marshall and I get to take classes about things that I'll be doing for a living one day.
I AM STOKED!
So I used to say at the end of a blog: "Peace, Love and Shannon Tweed." Whoa. Middle School, much? I need a new & I'm out phrase..
Anybody got any ideas??
Oh! And my song of the week: "I Love You" by Avril Lavigne.

Change

Change is sometimes good for you. It can help you get over an ex, get better grades, meet new and interesting people, and many more things.
I never thought I liked change in middle school. I cried on the first day of 6th grade because I didnt want to be in middle school. But now as a nearly 15-year-old freshmen on the newspaper staff I realize I love being sponteanous and not knowing what to expect. It's 21 types of amazing. :)
In eighth grade I would've never guessed who or what I would be a year later. It scares and excites me both. I love to know I'm going to be an uber awesome person one day, who maybe possibly will work for the LA times, but I also am afraid I'm losing who I am as I grow up. And there is nothing more terrifying in my opinion than that.
I want to wake up and be content being me. Not that "Bri", SKD wants. I don't want to talk more, and tone down my outfits to please anyone but myself. I don't want to try not to laugh too loud or eat more to impress mean girls. Hell No. I wanna be Bri.
And right now Bri is the nearly 15-year-old who is obsessed with the color purple and the Eiffel Tower. Who still stays up until midnight and brags about it. The girl who watches cartoons and is mesmerized by them.
The girl who works on the newspaper staff as a rookie but doesnt even care. Just the fact she gets to write makes her happy. The girl who is hilariously short and gets teased for it.
I love who I am right now. And I did back in 6th grade too. I'm just hoping when I turn 18 and move out for college, I'll still be like how I am today.
Bri; the girl with a huge ambiton to write.
:D

Bye Bye 2010 :)

The week after Christmas is very essential to me. It's the week you look back and review the year your putting behind you. My traditon is to come up with a sologan that fits the year. Every year in my past has been different for me. The years when I was little and was so stoked that Santa Claus came to my house and brought me gifts. My middle school years of the confusing infatuations. And this year, 2010, as a fourteen year old. Man oh man, have I learned a lot! Like the 29 year old woman your infatuated with isn't the prefect angel that you think she is. Oh no. She has a mean side to her shinning persona you've seen. She just hides it well. Yes, I'm talking about good ol' SKD again. She took up a large portion of the begining of 2010 for me. I actually fell for her act, and thought I could earn the title of one of her "favorites". Good news though people, today I no longer want the title. Let some seventh grader have it.
Lesson #2- It's okay to fanatize about marrying someone you've never met. As long as it makes you happy and takes your pain away from the previously stated infautuation go for it.
Litterally. I will take this advice to the grave. There aint nothing wrong with having a crush. Even on a celebrity whom you've never met and never will meet. And if you cry happy tears for two days over the fact they sent you thier autograph, so be it. Be Happy. You never know when something is gonna happen. And if you opened the door and there they stood; wouldn't you want a smile on your face? Hehe.
Lesson #3- The best friend your in love with could date you one day. So don't be so glum now girlie. Just dont ask what the outcome of that's gonna be. Or why you wont be speaking within two months. But hell, you dated someone for 12 days.
In your face SKD.
Something that corresponds to that lesson? Never believe someone outside your family loves you. Like really loves you. You'll know when they do. And in you doubt it, they don't. Listen to your gut. If you think you like them more than they do you, chances are your probably right.
So there you have it. My love lessons of 2010. Thats not even counting all the other lessons I learned this year. But I did come up with the sologan at last.
Never Say Never.
I told myself in 7th grade SKD would never even want to speak to me for a minute. I accomplished that, though she hates me today. But I still got that wish granted temporarily. I also told myself my ex best friend would never date me. She asked ME out first. "So we're like, offically dating right?" DAMN, I will never forget that line.
See what Im saying? I said Never to all these possiblities because I didnt think I was good enough to do any of these things.
Guess I was. Temporarily. But everything happens for a reason. A really really good one.
And 2010 was the year that we learned to Never Say Never.

The Years Of My Life.

Named each of my school years after a song I like. Enjoy! :)

6th Grade- 'Stronger'
When someone you care about breaks your heart, being strong is the only choice you have.

7th Grade- 'Jump Then Fall'

Sometimes we fall so hard for someone, all we ever think about is them.

8th Grade- 'I'd Lie'

Whenever you do something so bad, yet you can't even tell your best friend.

9th Grade- 'A Year Without Rain'

Staying away from the one you love is very painful. It takes forever.

highschool; at last.

well my blogger loves.. im in highschool. im sorry i havent updated but ya' know the drill. no time for anything but school and my highschool is no exception.
i love all my classes. ive been learning french--everyday phases, alphabet, numbers..etc.
I also take JOURNALISM! its pretty cool. a lot more news invovled than i bargined for but oh well. i heart it.
my digital imaging class is all about cameras the first six weeks. we go to to the schools garden today and take pictures. monday were uploading them into photoshop.
i cant wait.
english is a lot more in depth in writing this year and im pysched. i love to write if ya' havent noticed. hehe.
xoxoxo.
-bri.

Friday The 13th..

I never have good or bad luck on this day...except one year on the 13th, can't remember what month, my neighbor's dog got ran over by a car.
His name was Peanut and that was four years ago. She got a new dog recently who is ADORABLE! His name is Lil' Bear, and he is very,very friendly. But I love him anyways.
Same Sex Marriage is going to be allowed now in California. It's great, knowing that one day I will leave there and that will be allowed.
I like to believe we all commit sins in our lives. Some of us commit adultery, dishonor our parents, and many other things.
We covet, we envy and we steal. We murder, we rob, and we betray one another.
Being Gay doesn't sound so bad after all that huh?
If homosexuality is a sin and will send me to hell this is how I like to look at it. Would I rather be in hell with a bunch of lesbians or in Heaven with a bunch of Straight People?
haha. bet all you staright people are questioning yousevles now.
We Gays/Lesbains/Transexuals/Bis have our ways with words.
xooxoxo.
-bri.